i thought dyslexia was my biggest obstacle!

when i was a kid i had a slight learning problem and that my family and i thought would be my biggest obstacle in my life but we were so wrong.I never saw the vices coming!and boy iv been a through a good lot of them one of my first ever vices was stealing,especially from supermarkets my friends called my clepto cause there was no shop iwould enter and not "hit" it.i stoel items from fabmalls and nilgiris and foodworld everyday for almost 2 years straight.i musta scammed at least 9 grand worth of choclates.it became a sport for me a could enter fabmall and exit wit my treasure in 50 seconds (true timing btw).that was the beginning of my vices then i met an old friend of mine named ajai amrith.this was the time my nieveness was at its most.its from him i learnt the art of smoking weed and scamming people.boy he scammed me a lot but i dont really have any rerets cause if it wasnt for him i wouldnt have learnt anything in life and il be just as gullible.the one thing that i should give him credit for is that he alwasy kept me safe.for some reason i never got into any trouble hanging out wit him.all through this time i never smoked a ciggerette i smoked a lot of dope but never any ciggerettes.smoking wit him wasnt the first time i smoked up iv done it before but the first time i smoked up cause i was sad was with him.i remember the day, it was the day they announced the housecaptains.and i wasnt selected.that day really hurt me but i realise it was my fault i din get it i din workhard enough for it.i still remember when kr hugged me next to the chem lab and told me he was really sorry that hecouln do anything to make me cap.i told him it wasnt his fault and that i in really care.But the truth is i really did care ya i got intern prefect and n ya i was second in line for the VC badge but.... i still din get it.i felt really bad cause i had to live upto namithas rep as the best captain of the year and here i was nobody!

weed actually helped me get through this i completely forgot about all of this for a very long time.anyway after sending wit ajai for a long time we eventually met abhi this was inevetible.so me abhi and jai smoked together for along time soon before we knew it even dileep joined us and next thing u knew mohsin.but by the tie mohsin came ajai was out after a sound trashing i gave him that was i the day i though i was liberated an i really felt like i was too be honest i was really scared to speak up to him but tht day i stood my ground and made sure hed never mess wit me again.we were a very happy tribe abhi dileep mohsin and me.i fancied myself as something of a leader among us.wev had some really good trips we spent almost a year in shed jus smoking up continiously and then immediatly gaming with dota.MAN those were the days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!all of us had an amzing time!even uptill now i never smoked a ciggerette but by that time i was throughly addictd to weed no doubt.this one day we were at shed and we had no weed and i was turking so badly that i wanted to smoke anything and so i stared smoking a ciggrette even after everybodys warning of addiction istill smoked it! now this is my real obstacle in life! iv gotten past everything else but this and now after many attempts of quittting im quitting again.

in coll i took german thinking id take something different from my friends big big mistake!

anyway it seems i had shortage in german formy 3rd sem so i won get hall ticket.i transfornd myself into a lawyr and tried ighting mycase in the couort of law wit father in his office but he found me arrogant and according to my attendance last year i ws only repeating the same mistake.the protagonist in all of this was my friend nikhil dubey.i made a deal with god that if i get the hall ticket id quit smoking forver and i recorded this on my phone.as soon as i recorded this nikhil gave an idea"lets go meet sri sri ravi shankar who lives in khannakpura road arond 50 km form coll in ur kinetic honda thoughit gonna rain like mad soon."and i said OK!

that was the hardest ride if my life and the strongest rain blre has ever seen i kid u not. i was freezing and could barely open my eyes wit all the water entering them.but throughout i din smoke i wante to keep my word to god.u see in the process my phone which nikhil said hel keep safely got wet and mind u that was a nokia e63 9 k and my baby!through out the trip i din smoke i got home and din smoke then later in the week my exams were gonna start and my study hols wre going on but i still dint smoke i gave my hpone for service ans she said 1000 rs then after a fewdays she says its gonna cost me 4.5g to service it and i din tell mama during the time when i was in the shop recovering from my shock the police took my bike and went putting mt down by another 200 ma gave me 600 for ncc of which 200 i alreasy paid so i had to pay only 400 but off that i spent my 400 also but still i did not smoke and im not giving it up though i know tht i hav 76 now and the rules don apply anymore.u see i think this is a test from god i will not be redy to live life myself till i kill this habit and if i can take oneo f the worst weeks of my life without smoking its the first step to a halithier life.god give me the strenth to go on actually i have it in me so thanx anyway.

OMG!

its been a really long time since iv blogged here.. i jus read wat i wrote bak wen i was 17 damn!! i was sucha kid!1 buti was extremly happy... there was nothing datmade me feel bad.. an i told myself dat tym itself dat if things get touhg il take it head on! but i guess the curse of growing up is inevetible... no matter how hard we try we can never become kids again.. but those days were thebest o my life!! volley ball an playing all the time.. those days i din giv a fuk who was popular or not i had a steady group o friends an dat was good enough for me but once i got trapped into this world of being popular things started taking a downward spiral but i learnt my lesson.. an im very happy in coll but iv changed a lot since bak then some characetristics are still the same like my need an ablity to lead but my personality has undergone some cahnges.. im never gonna b a kid again an that a fact i jushav to accept that thisis the harsh reality of life... n role wit it.... it feels so nice to ryt wit no inhibition at all.. as in i can type as much as i woant with no fear of whos going to read it an make judgements of me... this kinda typing is so peaceful it truly explains wats going on im my heart...

vandhu n avi

avi came early in the morning round 11 n woke me up...we had breakfast here ma met him.. but she went 2 the bank l8er...he told me that vandhus gonna tell him wen 2 ask her out...i watched hotel rwanada its a really good movie...i went 2 play i played really well rebound 2day...ma n dad rnt talkin they fytn bout smthin god knows wat....i spoke 2 priyanka aftr giving her like a million missed calls ( 30 or more ) n its all kool now....i wasn really worried but still...now big problem how 2 raise money 4 tomo...lets c i have 3 fynd out if ma got the money 2day from HSBC if she did i mostly won be able 2 encash that cheque...il hav 2 get her a/c no. The face on mars isnt real its just coz of cross lyting....hav 2 collect my ball from akshay hope i wake up tomo.....i can do 6 pull ups now on the lower ladder...have 2 practice push ups....

leaving the city for kull

i woke up 2 l8e 2 go 2 iBBC so i decided 2 go 2 PPEC there i met that old man i used 2 play wit last summer....n that other gyu sathish n dat small kid appu...even though they were so bad i played like hell i couldn get 1 layup even, i was missing underboards my biggest problem is i don hold the ball tight enough...then i met that other guy i new last sumemr who used 2 coach retatred children Natraj i think his name is....l8er i met ajay n akshay playing cricket....me n ajay put a plan 2 go n hav sm kull 2day...this was round 9...while we were walkin 2 ajays house they told me all bout their scamming days stealing sump covers n really big things shit thats the kinda ppl i shoulda hung out wit.....akshay even stole n ipod..now dats a big deal...wile i was w8ing 4 jay i met baps (prashanth abhis friend)on the way 2 the kull place we were talkin bout namitha n he was tellin me bout wat a horrible kisser she was...it seems she told him that ma was Ms.Chennai as in a beauty pagent winner...n that we had an own brother who died in an acident (who was actually our cousin)....LOL...that is sure gonna haunt her wen she gets bak...we had kull i,they serve it in bathing mugs i had 2 mugs n i was ok blown...ajay had 6 i think..n he was screwed....we met some of his friends sajin arun n smother guy...i mingled wit them so well...i couldn believe this was me i was being a real extrovert....arun wokrs in airtel n said he can get me a conncetion wit a fake address so i cam throw it away after some tym....we had chicken necs for lunch (sounds gross but i relished it) wile returning sajin agve me a kini a lil packet wchic u put in ur lips n gets u hi...n it does...we had 2 travel 4 around 50 kms totally 2day..we went bak 2 ppec aftr dat n i met this semi old man rajesh he used 2 get extremee pains in hisryt arm but aftr ajay touched it 1day (god told him2 do so) his hand got better next day...(unlikly but trure)i met that guy romeo hes an ok guy... he got a "pudin hara" its a lil capsule full of neem its a horrible thing but removes the kik instantly....i got home @ 2 n din tell ma were i went so i told them dat i wen 2 karans house they think dat im so jobless i actually go there lol...so nieve...i went 2 sleep @ 3 till 6...n lastly priyankas shit mad @ me coz i actually 4get we had 2 d8 today...i gave her 40 missed calls she rejected afew...il try 2 make it up 2 her..

19.3.08

went 2 IBBC @ 8 met varsha n ashwin(that guy from PPEC whose bro is a pro)new guy i met chicken n algae n sm gy wit attitiude but played well...i took the form 2 join but i took the 1 for the summer camp...wile i was talkin 2 the coach i was pretty sure i saw varsha w8ing 4 me...i raced bak 2 atch up wit her but it was 2 l8...mayb il c her tomo..wnt to the post office n learnthow 2 send a parcel..it was frustarating but i learnt smthin ryt?on the way bak i saw these 2 german gys i had seen previosly b4 @ the busstop but v din even make eye contact...n today wile were walking in opposite directions the tall guy said hi n wished me a good morning....n i was peissed off that tym coz i had 2 go bak home 2 veerify smthin bout the package(had 2 send sm english conversation books 2 suresh mama)n aftr he wished me i jus smiled....shows how far a simple smile n greeting from a stranger goes...i went back 2 play again @ 5 had a lota fun now im not missing anymore underboards but every1 complainging bout my aggressiveness...im gettin really close 2 all o them now theyr really nice gys i jus had 2 open up 2 them....me n ajay were talkin bout hash n said hel call me for kull(toddy) somtym n hel try 2 get me hash....
wer gettin along really well now..i met aniketh on the way hes still doing sm crap wit his cycle....we had lime juice @ the bakery near fabmall....i was watching this movie "the break up" i can never imagine doing that 2 priyanka i no invariably im gonnaj us hold her hips n say im sorry....i cant imagine hurting sm1 so much...but then again can never tell how im gonna react l8er ryt....